my home sweet home....

i love this table and chairs.....this is not a picture of my house...but I wish these were in my house! hee hee hee

So here is a tour of my house....
FACTS:
I do not own this house...I just rent it...
Some of the furniture, I have re-created..painted, re-upholstered....made it new again!

Sometimes that's how our lives are...
maybe we are not thrilled with how our lives are looking....but all it takes it a couple changes, a couple fresh coats of paint, re-upholster some of our ways of thinking, add some dazzle...and BANGO!!! we are in love with our lives again!

*Today do something different, wear something that your heart says, "I love this!!!!", even if you think people will make fun of you...decide not to care if they do!

*If you have a little extra pocket change, buy yourself a little sparkly-treasure that will make your day happy!

*Decide that no matter what happens today...you will find something positive about it!
(oh I have to wait in line......well now I can send some really nice texts to people, I can call someone I haven't talked to in a while and tell them how I appreciate them as a friend)

*Make a good choice about food today..instead of a big platter of fried things, choose some fruit or a veggie, and you'll notice how you'll better, and you'll be very proud of yourself!

It's time to make-over our life-houses....redecorate your life, your wardrobe, and your feelings!
I guarantee you're gonna love your new life, you make for yourself!

In the meantime, here's a little tour of my house! And for everyone that asked, where's Blaker's room...he sleeps on the little bed in Alani's room...he doesn't like sleeping alone...

happy house touring..huge love..kandee
I have lived in very small places that weren't very nice...this is the nicest house I've lived in!
This is such a blessing that God has proved this home and a way for me to pay my rent here!

a candy kind of sky....

yesterday: a bit of a frazzly day
I had to talk with an attorney about a court date I have for this monday...this court date scares me, I've seen unjust things take place in courtrooms...I am being faced with false accusations about me which aren't true...and I do not want to go to court at all....but I will not let someone accuse me of things which aren't true.

My day was feeling overwhelming...and all I wanted was to have someone put their arms around me and tell me it would all be okay. Then, I looked outside my door...and it was as if God said, here's a present for you...this "kandee colored" sky to bring joy to your heart. It was like giving soul a hug, and I could feel, in this "heavenly" beauty that I was receiving the biggest, most heart warming hug around!

Sometimes we don't always have people close to us, to comfort us, or to hug us, but we do always have the Man Upstairs, to comfort our hurting hearts.

Sometimes we don's take notice of this little "heavenly" moments of beauty. I encourage each one of you that reads this...to open your hearts and your eyes, to enjoy and see these "special" treasures that sprinkle beauty into our day.

Notice the person smiling at you at the store...and smile back, notice a pretty flower, and maybe even breathe in it's perfumey goodness. Look at the sky for enchanting twinkly stars, or your very own candy colored sunset. These little moments are what make life beautiful, and sometimes we get so busy and caught up in our own world that we shut our eyes to the beauty and joy that God is trying to sprinkle into our lives!

I hope you see a sunset or moonrise that makes you pause...and take in some heart beauty!
huge love and hot pink sunsets...kandee

Gunshot to the heart....

this is where I run sometimes....I ran past this "gun-shot"-land...where everything from toilet seats to tv's became target practice for all kinds of ammo...and it reminded me of our dreams and hearts sometimes....
Sometimes it feels like our dreams, our hearts, our future has been shot to pieces...
Left to lay lifeless...without hope....BUT
What sometimes is even more beautiful...is the imperfection...all the holes make it more beautiful, so more light can shine through....like a beautiful piece of lace, or a beautiful sky filled with clouds...and through the holes and spaces in the clouds is where the most beautiful beams of light some shining through.

If your heart feels injured or your dreams feel dead....know that...the most amazing stories came out of things that didn't seem possible. A plant can grow out of a rock...that seems impossible!
You can plant a bamboo seed...and it looks like nothing is happening...the first year nothing happens, but the root is growing deep (that's our lives, the time we keep believing, the emotion we go through)...still above ground it looks hopeless..you'd give up on that plant that never popped up!
BUT JUST WAIT!!!!!
After that the bamboo plant can shoot up over 4 feet in 24 hours, that's almost as tall as a 10 year old!!! That's how our dreams and hearts can be....even if it looks like nothing is happening...life and everything we go through is getting us ready to "catapult" into extreme growth like the bamboo!

Keep your hopes alive and your heart and chin even higher...no matter what is going on...think of it as getting you stronger and more prepared for greatness!!!
I believe in you and love you..if no one else tells you that today! I did!
huge love, kandee

protection!!!

(this photo was taken by: myself...inside the standard hotel in downtown LA...in their restaurant that makes you feel like you're in an egg carton)

i love my leopard iphone cover...correction:i LOVED it....I no longer have both sides of the "iphone" protector...(i got it at some random kiosk in a mall....at the AMERICANA in Glendale, California to be exact...hee hee hee...right out front of Anthropologie...if you wanna get one too!)

I have friends that think the "protectors" aren't cool...thus they have a naked iphone..that sure enough is scratched and a little banged up....
We need to protect the things that are valuable to us...I protect my phone, because it was expensive! I protect my car...by trying not to park next to someone that has parked all wonky...so that my car doesn't get smashered...and I try to protect my dreams...my heart......my thoughts...the people I love....
Our hearts need to be protected the most...
our heart pumps blood to keep us alive....and it is the center of our thoughts and our thinking...
who do we love, how do we love...how we get our hurt or discouraged....
Today...
but the key thing here is...we protect what we value...
So today...protect your heart and mind from...others mean things....from maybe even your own dangerous thoughts....from letting people hurt you or discourage you...
No one else is going to protect your heart and you mind, but you....
Refuse to think thoughts that aren't going to help you....refuse to let someone's meanie words...scratch your heart....
Together we can all put on our leopard print-protective-heart-cases.....hee hee...we'll be stylish and protected..from damage all at the same time!!!
huge, huge love, kandee

oh no, backwards!!!!

in warmer weather...this is where I run......I run really far sometimes.
I used to hate running...then it became like a therapy...I would process all my thoughts...listen to music, and when a day went by that I didn't run, I felt like i was not right.

Sometimes I would run really far, in the wrong direction, because I knew it would make my run longer on the way back.....making me into better shape.

Last night as I left a message for my mom on her cell phone....I said something, that really hit my heart...I didn't even really think all hard about what I was saying. But I told her, sometimes, we have to go backwards in life...and it may seem like, "oh no! now I'm really never going to get where I want to be!"....
but it's like a catapult.....you need to pull the catapult backwards...so it has the power to launch it's object farther ahead!

I know this feeling, when I had to move out of LA, I felt like all my dreams were never going to happen. I was going way, way, way, into the WRONG DIRECTION!!! And then I had more of my babies...and thought: "I just really screwed up my life!"......but God knew the whole time, what he was doing...
When I was put in that position, where I couldn't really work because of all my new little people, and I wasn't in LA where I could get all my work.....that's when I started the youtube videos....and I have received more blessings....my heart has been so touched and inspired...and it has been more rewarding than any make-up job I ever could've gotten with any celebrity or any movie!

If you feel like you are going backwards.....in your life, relationship, career, dreams, school...anything....just get ready, because, your probably about to be launched farther into your future...think CATAPULT!!!!

you gotta go backwards...before you catapult into your future!!!!
huge love and catapulting, kandee

this is how life is sometimes

majestic mornings.....

this was the view from the
Motel 6 in Mammoth.....the first morning of the new year....
I walked outside to go buy a Vitamin water....and the beauty of the mountains stole my breath away...all around...are the most beautiful, more-than-your-eyes can take in....mountains. The tallest mountain in the contiguous United States is in this mountain range, Mt. Whitney.

Sometimes it may seem like we have the tallest mountains of difficulty in our lives. We may look our lives and say, oh this is too big to ever overcome...this pain is too much, the frustration is too overwhelming.

Instead we need to develop our wings...wings like eagles. They make nest in the highest, most dangerous locations. Instead of running and hiding like a chicken would when they see danger...eagles just fly higher! That's what we need to do. When we see things in life getting more difficult....instead of shrinking down and hiding, and saying "oh well, it's too much, I'll never be able to do that...I'll never be able to be happy"......We need to fly even higher....go even farther...we truly can "fly" above our problems......
No one said we need to just sit and take whatever problems or hurts, we have in our paths! We need to just decide that we are going to have wings like eagles....and fly above them!

When you're feeling hurt or sad...or discouraged....that's the time we need to put our "eagle wings" on and soar beyond the hurt and the sadness. God even says when we "fly" with him, it's like we are soaring high with wings like eagles!

So let's soar high above all of life's troubles this year with wings like eagles!!!

huge love....your fellow eagle flyer...kandee

i'm gonna start or stop......

(me and my friend Saori on new year's...in mammoth...and yes I wore an old Marine coat..I loved it, as was the most "clothed" girl there...ha ha ha)
....oh the new years resolutions...
gym's make a killing this time of year with all the people pledging to get in shape!

I am working on a few things...and yes, working our more regularly is one of them! ha ha ha

All I know is that, in a year, so many things can happen...
this time last year...I was doing..well...not as great as I am right now...
I was having trouble paying all my bills...I was at then end of a "not fun" divorce...work was not keeping me very busy...and I was a little depressed and sad...

in one year....my life has really turned around....I started blogging....doing videos on youtube...so much love started flowing in from everyone that sent me kind and encouraging words...I've worked a lot harder this year than I think I ever have...and even though sometimes I've wanted to cry or think , "this is too hard, I can't keep up"....I just kept going!

This year is fresh and clean, and it doesn't matter what's been done in the past...this is like getting a brand new canvas to paint on...
whatever hurts and frustrations...were in the past year...leave them there..ans start new...with boldness, happiness and lots of hope! This could be the year that:
your dreams start to come true, you find your true love, your happiness returns, you become the best you that you've always wanted...

dream big and hope even bigger...this is the year to be the changes that you want....become the person you want to show the world...love bold and brave...and do things that scare you...you'll be glad you did...talk to the people that make you nervous, say the things that you usually keep trapped inside....love more people than you did last year....and give more compliments away...let's spread more love this year everywhere we go...and in return we will feel more loved!!!!

happiest new year!!!! may 2010 be filled with sparkles, love, dreams, and lots of hope!!!
xoxoxo kandee